| OMG!!! |
[Jul. 10th, 2006|04:04 pm] |
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OK, now that I've got that out of the way. I AM GOING CRAZY!!! But in a good way. I got a letter about 20 minutes ago. In it was an invitation, that could change my life. It was from the People to People World Leadership Forum. In April, I went to Washington, D.C. for 7 days. Well, because of my participation, I'm eligible to go to a new forum. This forum is 9 days long, in is in March-ish of 2007. I REALLY want to be able to go to this one. I was nervous about the other one, because I thought I wouldn't fit in, and everyone else would be like super geniuses. But after going, I realized how many people are actually like me! My roommates were into the same things I was, and we had so much fun! Other than being locked out of our hotel room 'til midnight. Lmao.
The scary thing about the upcoming forum, is both the price, and the location. Actually the location is probably the most exciting part. LONDON , PARIS, AND BELGIUM!!!!! This trip would mean so much to me. The plans for the trip our soo interesting. Throughout the trip I'll be seeing and participating in, riding the Lond Eye, the world's largest Ferris Wheel; attending a show in London's West End; visiting the Tower of London; learning about Belgian chocolate; visiting Breendonk Concentration Camp; visiting the Montmartre district ( THE SETTING FOR MOULIN ROUGE!); seeing the Louvre Museum, including the Mona Lisa; Seeing Paris from atop the Eiffel Tower; meeting a member of the British Parliament.
Now that you have an idea of what I'll be experiencing IF I attend; it's time you heard the reason I almost surely WON'T be going. The fee for this life-changing experience, is much bigger than the one I paid for April's D.C. forum. The fee is $3,295. Plus, round trip airfare from London to Boston. Not only that, but also I need a passport, clothes and anything else needed for a trip of this magnitude. Other than that HUMONGOUS obstacle, another sits in my way. I can't mention it here, but another complication, another LIFECHANGING circuimstance has occured, not only destorying other things, but almost POSITIVELY destroying my small chance of going to this forum.
This update has been one of much importance to me, and if you guys have any ideas how to raise money quickly and easily, or at least easily, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE, comment me. This trip would be soo important to me, and my future. I can't describe how much I would appreciate help in fundraising for this.
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| Saturday. Three and One Hours til POTC!!!! |
[Jul. 8th, 2006|12:56 pm] |
| Your Summer Ride is a Beetle Convertible | 
Fun, funky, and a little bit euro.
You love your summers to be full of style and sun! |
^^OOH PUNCH BUGGY SILVER NO PUNCH BACK!!!!
| Your Power Color Is Indigo | 
At Your Highest:
You are on a fast track to success - and others believe in you.
At Your Lowest:
You require a lot of attention and praise.
In Love:
You see people as how you want them to be, not as how they are.
How You're Attractive:
You're dramatic flair makes others see you as mysterious and romantic.
Your Eternal Question:
"Does This Work Into My Future Plans?" |
^^OOOH PRETTY COLORS!!!! *is hypnotized by pretty blue color* I really think that quiz got me right. I am i LOVE with blue. WE'll be getting married in late August.
| Your Power Level is: 63% | 
You're a very powerful person, and you know that all of your power comes from within.
Keep on doing what you're doing, and you'll reach your goals. |
^ I WILL CONTROL THE ENTIRE WORLD!!! WHOO HAHAHAHAHA!!! NOTHING CAN DEFEAT ME!!!
| Your Personality Is |
Guardian (SJ)
You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented.
Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules.
You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader.
You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you.
A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do.
You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up.
In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly.
At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions.
With others, you tend to be polite and formal.
As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself.
On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them! |
^^MOSTLY this quiz was good. Some specific parts were total BS. Like "With others, you tend to be polite and formal". YEAH RIGHT!!! And "As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive." UH huh. SUUUUUUURE.
| Your Famous Last Words Will Be: | 
"I dunno, press the button and find out." |
*obsesses over Lj*
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| TWO UPDATES IN ONE DAY, I'M ON A ROLL!! |
[Jul. 5th, 2006|10:12 pm] |
Take the quiz:
What kind of bagel are you?
Plain
You're a little on the boring side, spice up your life.
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^^HEY!! That's NOT very NICE!!!! *calls Adrienne and tells her to attackle the quiz* MEANIE!! PLus, ONION bagels are the ABSOLUTE best. SO OOOH!!!! Lmao.
Take the quiz:
What Star Wars Character Are You?
Obi-Wan Kenobi
You are a level headed person who uses the Force to compliment your natural talent
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^^ OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG (almost done) OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG (done). *stares at Ewan McGregor* OMG!! OK, now I am REALLY done. I LOVE* EWAN McGREGOR FOREVERRRR!!!!!!!!!!Ok, Obi-Wan Kenobi is soooo awesome. Whoever disagrees, PLEASE comment. PLEASE. I would LOVE to argue with you. Because Ewan McGregor (a.k.a Obi-Wan) is THE BEST. Got it? Good. Now that I've gotten that out of the way, OMG!!!!! Sorry. Couldn't help it. But this is just soooo cool. Cuz I'm OBSESSED w/ Ewan. And according to my NEW FAVORITE quiz, THAT'S MY STAR WAR'S CHARACTER!!! *Does the happy dance*
Take the quiz:
Are you a Jedi or Sith?
Anakin Skywalker - Jedi Guardian/Sith
Clouded your futurs is! The outcome of your training is not yet known. For now it looks like your path leads to both the light and darksides of the Force. Masterful with a lightsaber, and well knowlegdable in the force. Hatred runs deep throughout your body. Yet your feelings towards others is very strong, full of love.
Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook!
^^ You know, Anakin IS REALLY hott.=] *tee*hee*. I think that quiz got me perfectly. I'm not sure which I am. Good or Evil? Light or Dark? Mean or Nice? Friend or Foe? The answer is yours to guess. But the truth, is always hiding. Behind the corner. In the dream that won't come back. In the fading mist of morning. On the other side of the forever locked door. Will you ever find the hidden truth? Will I? Will the outcome be the one you expect? Or the one you NEVER saw coming? HOW will this evasive truth be found? Will any of these questions be answered? Will....*falls into deep trance*
Take the quiz:
What Element Do You Control?
Water
You control the common element of water!!!!Congrats! With this element, you can: Create a tidal wave, cause a flood,put out a fire, do anything that has to do with water and you are naturally immune to water.
Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook!
^^OOOH!!! WATER!!! Lmao. I LOVE water. Swimming, tubing, EVERYTHING!! I'm a WATER-BENDER!!! Just like Katara. For you DUMB people. Katara is from Avatar: The Last Airbender. And she kicks ass!!!! Yup.
Well, that was fun. Now I've got to run. Megan is BEGGING to get on. BYE BYE!!!
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| Wednesday |
[Jul. 5th, 2006|07:02 pm] |
Well...today was...confusing. Yup, confusing DEFINITELY fits today. The morning / afternoon up til about 4 was ok. But at 4 o'clock I got really confused. See I had a game at Jay Middle School for softball, and we have to be there at 5. Well, I couldn't find ANYTHING. Because *PEOPLE* in my house ALWAYS have to move MY stuff. By the time I got ready Gary gave me a ride to Jay. No one was there. So we checked the other field at Livermore Falls H.S. Nope, no one there either. So we drove BACK to Jay. This time when we got there, people were there. So I got out and Gary left. As I neared the field I noticed a critical fact.
THESE PEOPLE WERE NOT ON EITHER TEAM! So I panicked. And decided to just WALK home. From Jay. Yeah. So I did. I made it to C.N. Brown before Adrienne's Mommy picked me up. I guess she made a mistake and the game wasn't til MONDAY. So she brought me home. Well, not quite. We made it to about Franchetti's this time. And then we saw my Mom and Gary driving toward us, heading to the game that's non-existent. So we waved at them, but APPARENTLY they didn't notice WHO we were, so we turned around, and followed them. FINALLY they pulled over, BACK at C.N. Brown. And we explained and blah blah blah. SO Mom picked me up and we went to Hannaford for wipes for Avalyn, and McDonald's for me, Meg, and Sweeny.
And now I'm here. Yup. It may not SEEM confusing, but it was. Yup. I like that word. Yup. *tee*hee*. I'm kinda weird.I must be hanging out w/ that Adrienne kid too much...=]. Lmao. Well tomorrow we're going to TRY to go swimming at Stinchfield in Leeds. We being Me, Serena, Meg, Avalyn, and possibly Adrienne. *whispers* SHH! She doesn't know about it yet!! *stops whispering* But anyways... I've been pretty bored this summer. I was looking through some of my old pictures from the past couple years w/ Adrienne, and I found some from our Youth Group rafting trip last summer. I'm really gonna miss youth group...I mean, we'll still have it, but it won't be the same without PJ...=[. SInce rec ended, I HAVE been enjoying myself more. I miss seeing people, but I LOVE not HAVING to do ANYTHING!!! Lmao.
Well I g2g clean my room...Yick. Wow this update is longer than I thought it would be. It's a BOOK compared to some peoples' updates *cough* MICHAEL BURNHAM *cough cough*
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| uh....oh yeah! It's......um......TUESDAY!!! THAT's RIGHT! |
[Jun. 27th, 2006|09:02 pm] |
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| | When There Was You and Me by Vanessa Anne Hudgens | ] |
Take the quiz:
What song are you? ***PICS***
American Idiot
You are AMERICAN IDIOT! You like to play your electric guitar (worship it) and you HATE YOUR PREZ!
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^^Hey, it works for me. I don't HATE Bush, hate is much too strong. I REALLY don't like him though. And for all you stupid people, NO those are NOT the same thing. And the song is kinda sorta TOTALLY awesome. =].
Take the quiz:
What candy are you? *with pictures*
Sweet Tarts
You are a Sweet Tart!! You like those sweet tastes along with a little tang!
Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook!
^^I LOVE SweetTarts!!! I had some the other day actually...Yumm =] I should go buy some actually...*runs to store and ruobs them of ALL SweetTarts*
Take the quiz:
What dragon species are you? (Stunning pics)
Water Dragon
Cool, collective you are the guardian of the oceans, the water god's right hand and you can calm someone down or you can rage up a storm.
Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook!
^^ooooh prettyful *stares at dragon and enters a deep trance*
*four hours later* WHOA! yeah, i like this one. I LOVE the water, swimmming is just wonderful. It makes me feel so free. I don't know about caling someone down, but i definately can rage up astorm.
Take the quiz:
What that 70s show character are you?
Eric
You are Eric . skinny , and smart mouthed , but funny
Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook!
^^ Well...I LOVE Eric. I AM a smart-ass, and i THINK i'm funny, but there is no way in hell anyone would think I'm skinny. I'm happy i got Eric though. He's my favorite...<3 lmao. |
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| Quizzies!!! |
[Jun. 24th, 2006|01:41 pm] |
^^*tee*hee* I LOVE Blue!!! |
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| I just CAN'T do ANYTHING right, can I? |
[Jun. 12th, 2006|08:08 pm] |
So...
Lately I've decided to act on a feeling. And by doing so I fucked everything up. Not only does he NOT like me, but now he's gonna act like a retard around me too. And YES I know you're reading this. So listen up. Just because I like, LIKED you, doesn't mean you have to be a dick about it. And don't try to say you didn't. Fighting w/ Kristopher over the fucking aisle seat, so you don't have to sit next to me? WTF?!?! That really hurt my feelings. I can't believe you would be THAT childish about a FUCKING MOVIE!!!!!
But w/e. If you want to screw everything up, go ahead. I WANT to be your friend. But if you can't handle that, than I won't be your friend either. I would rather keep our friendship, than have a hissy fit over something, that's IN THE PAST. I don't care if you still think I like you, I really don't. But you made me feel stupid. More stupid than any test in school could have made me feel. And it's those feelings that make me want to hide everything from everyone. I can't get close to people because I'm too afraid of getting hurt.
You know who you are, and so do most of the people who read this LJ. Please, don't say anything stupid either, because than i'll just get pissed off.
Mainly today, I came to a conclusion. I will NEVER be good enough. I do all I can, but still I get left alone. Today, I did SOMETHING wrong and ended up with the ONLY empty seat on the bus, beside me. And I scare people away; people I REALLY care about. I do "good" in school, but not good enough to be recognized for it. I try to be a good friend, but somehow, I just lose all my friends, one by one. I can't stop trying, but I REALLY want to. To just forget about EVERYTHING, and just be who I want to be. I know that I'll always be alone, so why bother to change it? |
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| It All Falls Apart... |
[Jun. 4th, 2006|09:29 pm] |
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| | Home, Bed Soon. | ] |
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| |  Does anyone REALLY care? | ] |
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| | Panic! at the Disco: I write Sins Not Tragedies | ] |
Well, I haven't REALLY updated in a long time. Now is as good a time as any i guess. Especially since I'm about to fall apart. Lately it seems like i can't do anything right, without getting criticized or something. No matter how hard I try, whatever I do, doesn't work out. No one EVER notices me... Not in the way I want to be anyway... I can't seem to make the things I want to happen. As everyone's life seems to be progressing positively, mine just hits a stop, or moves back a few steps.
I think I do good, but then someone or something comes along and knocks it down. And it realy hurts. People tell me I'm smart. Well, so what? It doesn't help me at all. Actually it makes everything harder. People put more pressure on me when they say I'm smart or whatever. Even if they don't mean to, I can't take this much pressure. If ANYTHING is under a certain amount of pressure, it explodes. I'm NOT different than anyone else. I DO feel things, and I DO care.
Having good grades is the only thing I'm REALLY good at. Since 2nd grade I was always the "smart kid" or the "nerd". Middle School brought that idea crashing down. Now I'm being passed by and I HAVE to do good. I have to maintain who I am. Its the only identity I have. And when I can't keep that as mine I flip out. And spiral downwards, into a place I hate to go to.
This may sound stupid to you. But this is what I go through every month before that stupid assembly...Or report cards... Or the AP test...
It's just hard for me to be anything but that "smart girl". I'm not athletic, or popular, or musical. I'm just the "smart girl". Thats all anyone ever sees me as. And its not fair. I try to fix that. I play softball and soccer, and I try to make more friends, which I have done this year, but all my friends are PYSCHO!!!! Not thats bad. But they confuse me. By going out with each other, and breaking up, and going out, and breaking up. Strangely enough I am left out of this. Weird, huh? Yeah...right.
I guess this is who I'll always be. Lonely, and smart. Whoo hoo for me!
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| LOVE this song!!!<3 |
[May. 27th, 2006|03:03 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Home. BOO!!! | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hmm... | ] |
| [ | music |
| | More Love by Dixie Chicks | ] |
I'm so close to you baby
But I'm so far away
There's a silence between us
And there's so much to say
You're my strength, you're my weakness
You're my faith, you're my doubt
We gotta meet in the middle
To work this thing out
More love, I can hear our hearts cryin'
More love, I know that's all we need
More love, to flow in between us
To take us and hold us and lift us above
If there's ever an answer
It's more love
We're afraid to be idle
So we fill up the days
We run on the treadmill
Keep slavin' away 'til there's no time for talkin'
About trouble in mind
And the doors are all closed
Between your heart and mine
More love, I can hear our hearts cryin'
More love, I know that's all we need
More love, to flow in between us
To take us and hold us and lift us above
If there's ever an answer
It's more love
Just look out around us
People fightin' their wars
They think they'll be happy
When they've settled their scores
Let's lay down our weapons
That hold us apart
Be still for just a minute
Try to open our hearts
More love, I can hear our hearts cryin'
More love, I know that's all we need
More love, to flow in between us
To take us and hold us and lift us above
If there's ever an answer
It's more love
I can hear our hearts cryin'
More love, I know that's all we need
More love, to flow in between us
To take us and hold us and lift us above
If there's ever an answer
It's more love
More love |
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| O. M. G. |
[May. 23rd, 2006|06:00 pm] |
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